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[Monday
March 24th, 2008 at 10:51pm]
If anyone would like, they can join me over at Scribbld.net

Feel free to email me for a new user code at sendrileswench[at]gmail[dot]com
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Well fuck. [Thursday
January 10th, 2008 at 12:28pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

So apparently, GJ is dying. Utterly and completely.

So I will be exporting all of my entries from both this journal and my previous username on here and backing them up somehow.

Once that is done I will no longer continue to update either of these journals. I may leave them up for a time, or I may delete them, but I will not continue to invest myself in a site that could up and disappear completely at any moment.

If you want to continue to reach me, I can be found at the following blog sites:

Insane Journal: SendrilesWench *NEW*
LiveJournal: SendrilesWench
Blogger: Just Write [updated infrequently]
MySpace: Brigid the Strange
Facebook: Liz

Also, if anyone has a DJ account and would be willing to give me a journal code, I would greatly appreciate it. Apart from LJ, they seem to be the only blogging site that hasn't come incredibly close to dying since they started.

Mal reads poetry? || 3 Albatrosses

Missing Brother Saga and Weekend Report [Monday
January 7th, 2008 at 2:16pm]
[ mood | calm ]

Cut because it's so friggin' long! )

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[Friday
January 4th, 2008 at 11:27am]
I just got a text from my mother letting me know that my brother has been found and is okay.

I don't know where he was or what's happened beyond that, but at least he isn't missing anymore.

[Edit] My boss found out what was happening and sent me home. So I'm out of work for the day.
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[Friday
January 4th, 2008 at 9:16am]
[ mood | worried ]

My little brother went out on a date last night with a girl he met on the internet.

He never came home, cell phone is off, and no one knows where he is.

The police have been called.

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A small ray of hope... [Thursday
January 3rd, 2008 at 2:50pm]
[ mood | anxious ]

A few moments ago I got a call from an unknown number on my cell. It turned out to be the rental office from an apartment I found on craigslist who's ad I had replied to. They wanted me to come by at 5pm today to look at the apartment.

Unfortunately I work until at least 6pm everyday Monday through Friday. I told them as such, and they said they would call me back tomorrow to schedule a time to look at the space on Saturday. However, I am very anxious to move out of the house, and just from looking at the ad I know this place in particular will go quickly as it is cheap, has a full kitchen, set parking, and all utilities are supposed to be included in the $600/month rent.

So I though about it for a bit, asked a couple friends, and then called my boss. She is letting me leave at 5pm today so that I can go meet with the rental office for this place at 5:30pm. It means I have to come into work early tomorrow, and Allen from the rental office has to stay a little late today to wait for me, but I will get a chance to look at this apartment and if I think it's good enough and will suit my needs, I am going to do everything in my power to purchase it and move in as soon as possible.

Wish me luck!

Mal reads poetry? ||

Thanks Dad. [Wednesday
January 2nd, 2008 at 10:43pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

So halfway through my work day today my phone rang. I glanced at it, saw it was my father, and elected to ignore it as he usually only calls when he wants to schedule dinner or needs me to do tech support for him. So I checked my messages on my way home from work and gave him a call back. Sure enough, he wanted to have dinner with me. So I drove straight to his home rather than go home to change, and we went out to the Thai place down the street that we used to go to all the time.

Now, the thing you must know about my father is that he only ever wants me to come over or go to dinner with him or otherwise talk to him when he needs something. Usually it's because he feels like I'm neglecting him or he wants to vent about my little brother or because he needs tech support or some other such mundane item.

This time, it turns out he wanted to tell me three things:

1. My little brother has been banned from spending the night in my mother's home.

2. Sallie Mae called this morning and apparently I was supposed to be making payments on my student loans as of December, but no one has notified me of this so now I'm once again in the hole.

3. A very old family friend, who I grew up with as a child and thought of as a favored uncle, had a massive stroke and died in the hospital near his home in Kansas on Friday.

So thanks Dad. Thanks for dragging me out in public to tell me all this so that I wouldn't be able to act upset or show my hurt like I needed to in order to begin to properly grieve because I know how much you hate having to deal with things like that. Thanks for not even bothering to tell me over the phone so that I could handle it in my own way. Thanks for dragging me out after a long horrid day at work to get shitty Thai food that I couldn't even finished because halfway through my third bite you blurted out, "So remember Lee? He's dead."

Thanks Dad. Love you too.

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An open letter to GreatestJournal: [Wednesday
January 2nd, 2008 at 5:33pm]
[ mood | disappointed ]

Dear GJ:

I have been a faithful user of your site since 2003. I have switched usernames once and gotten other journals with different sites over the last 4 or 5 years, but I have always kept this journal updated, and I have never even considered leaving your site for another. You have always gone above and beyond your competition, by continuing to offer a completely free, quality blogging site with a user friendly design and helpful staff. I have never once had an issue with your site in the entire time I've used it.

Until just now.

This morning when I logged on to my journal, I had access to all 266 of my userpics. I know this because I typed up a quick entry, scrolled through my list, and posted without fail. Just a moment ago when I logged in to reply to a friend's entry, I noticed that my list was decidedly shorter. Confused, I went to my edit userpics page and was shocked to see that the user pictures limit had miraculously decreased from 300 to 10.

Now honestly, I am a bit upset by the fact that you have reduced our limits by just a large number, but what has me more aghast is the fact that there was NO PRIOR WARNING of such an event. I imagine there was an obscure newspost somewhere on the site, but honestly you cannot expect that every single one of your users will have bothered to check for such a thing.

You have a private message function employed on the site. How difficult would it have been for you to have simply written a short, mass PM that explained your reasons for reducing the user pics limit at least a few days prior to the event? I am certain it would not have taken very long for even a single staff member to compose such a message and send it to all of your users, and this courtesy would have shown that you continue to care about your users and the quality of your service, more so than some of your competitors.

But no. Instead you chose to go the way of so many larger blogging sites, and implement a drastic change without any real attempt at warning. And honestly, I know that had you sent a mass PM beforehand still not everyone would have read it. But actions speak louder than words and at least the effort would have been there.

I am deeply disappointed in you GJ. I have come to expect more from you over the years, and for the first time since I began blogging away on the internet like so many others, you have let me down. I only hope that you do not continue this trend, as I know that I will not personally be able to hold much affection for your site if you do.

A faithful user,

Liz

Mal reads poetry? || 3 Albatrosses

New Beginnings [Wednesday
January 2nd, 2008 at 10:07am]
[ mood | calm ]

I hope that everyone had a wonderful weekend and had/is having a wonderful holiday as well. May this new year bring happiness and bright blessings for all of you and your loved ones. I hope 2008 turns out to be a fantastic year for everyone.


This year, I'm actually going to make a couple resolutions for myself, and I promise to do my absolute best to stick to them:

1. Move out of my parent's home.
2. Find or create an exercise program that works for me and stick to it.
3. Spend more time with the people I care about.
4. Stress-out and panic less.
5. Be happier.

I think I can stick to these if I really try, and I know that this is going to be a better year than the last one. If only because it's already gotten off to a great start. :)

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Yay free booze! [Thursday
December 27th, 2007 at 3:50pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Apparently, I won a bottle of vodka in the raffle at the employee holiday party after I left last Sunday. My co-worker just brought it in to me, and it's a 750ml bottle of Han Vodka, which is one of the few kinds of vodka we actually serve in our restaurant. I've never heard of it before, but it looks interesting. It's no Grey Goose, but it's infused with polished rice and is supposed to have a clean, sweet taste.

It looks like it'll be fun to try and I am going to check out the recipes offered on the brand's website. If I find anything really interesting I'll head out to BevMo this weekend and get the ingredients for one of the brand's signature recipes and have a go.

Also, I'm going AWOL this weekend, so don't expect me on much if at all. I am going to leave for points unknown straight from work Friday evening and not return until Tuesday unless someone REALLY needs me for something important. I need the vacation and it will be nice to get away.

In the meantime, I am killing time at work while dizzy and sleepy, as I stayed out far later than I should have last night, even though it was completely worth it.

So yeah, I'm going to go back to work now and debate the virtues of opening my new bottle of vodka to taste it when I get home versus saving every last drop for this weekend.

Mal reads poetry? || 1 Albatross

Today officially sucks. [Friday
December 21st, 2007 at 1:09pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

So some asshat spambot just sent a link to me that for some idiotic reason I was persuaded to click. Now the firefox browser on my WORK computer has been hijacked, and I am in the process of running scans to make sure the rest of the computer isn't infected before I delete and reinstall firefox just to be on the safe side.

Also, I have felt like crying since the moment I woke up this morning, and despite my efforts to curb that feeling, it's persistent and irrational. I don't have any reason to be this upset, and I don't have any reason to be upset enough to cry. I mean yes, I'm annoyed as all hell and a bit frustrated, but that's nothing that would normally make me cry.

Which means that this is a full on downswing and I'm going to have trouble dealing with it for the rest of the day. Joyous.

Today just fucking sucks. I want it to be over now.

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Is it over yet? [Friday
December 21st, 2007 at 11:57am]
[ mood | depressed ]

The following things have made me realize that this weekend will not be as good as I had hoped:

1. I have done absolutely NO present shopping, and will therefore spend the bulk of my day tomorrow at the mall, which I loathe.

2. I will be forced to sit through a recounting of the "christmas story" (specifically the nativity) at least once.

3. I will be required to be sociable and make small talk with my step-family.

4. Because of obligations to my family, and others obligations to their families, I will get to spend very little (if any) time with the people I would actually LIKE to spend my holiday with.

5. I woke up this morning with a dry, scratchy throat, which means that if I am not extremely careful, I could fall ill be tomorrow afternoon.

6. My injured toe is not healing as it should have, and instead of reattaching the severed skin it is going to grow new skin beneath it, which will take much longer and be twice as painful.

6.A. This also means that there's twice the chance of infection if I'm not careful.

7. I've realized that I am officially in the middle of a depressive down swing, which is making it difficult to contemplate getting through this weekend, especially the parts that will involve direct contact with people and crowds.


In short, I'm fucked.

Mal reads poetry? ||

Maybe one day... [Thursday
December 20th, 2007 at 5:53pm]
[ mood | contemplative ]

...I'll tell you how I really feel.

Maybe one day I'll slip up and blurt it out. Or maybe one day I sit you down and attempt to express emotion through words. Maybe I'll smile shyly or maybe I'll look straight ahead or maybe I'll pretend you're not even there to make the words come easier.

Maybe I'll tell you and silence will fall while we wait. Maybe you'll leave. Maybe you'll stay. Maybe you won't say anything or maybe you'll laugh.

Maybe I'll leave. Maybe I'll run away without waiting for your reaction. The fallout. The end.

Or maybe I'll stay.

Maybe it'll be good.

Maybe it'll be bad.

Maybe it'll just be.

Maybe you already know. Maybe you don't. Maybe I hope you do. Or I don't.

Maybe I'll tell you, maybe I'll stay silent.

But first, I'll work on the courage to tell you if I should so choose.

And maybe, just maybe, the rest will come easy.

Maybe.

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Pain. [Wednesday
December 19th, 2007 at 10:35am]
[ mood | cold ]

So late Monday evening I was walking rather gingerly into the kitchen to throw out the remains of my dinner, when I tripped over an exposed nail. Now, this hurt like a bitch, but I didn't think it was all that bad until I saw the blood literally gushing from the wound. And by gushing I mean there was a decently sized puddle on the floor where I was sitting and I went through a good half a pack of napkins attempting to keep the mess to a minimum.

Fortunately, my mom was there and as she's a nurse she was able to suture it closed with a butterfly closure and wrapped it up in gauze for me. Unfortunately, it was a bad enough gouge and I'd lost enough blood in a short amount of time that I actually went into the first stages of shock. I couldn't get warm, I couldn't stop shivering, and I couldn't control the movement of most of my limbs. So that wasn't all that fun.

I also don't have insurance, so I wasn't able to got to the ER, even though I probably should have. Still, my mother is a nurse and she knew what she was doing, so eventually the bleeding stopped and I began to regain feeling in my foot. Which is good, but it also hurts a fuckload more than it did before because now I can feel my toes again. Sadly it hurt so much that I couldn't even put a sheet over my foot to keep it warm because the weight was too much. But eventually I managed to crawl into bed and get some sleep.

Yesterday morning, I woke up, showered awkwardly without getting my foot wet while at the same time trying to keep my new tattoo from getting overly saturated, and had my mother redress the wound. I got dressed, took some Ibuprofen, and got into the car to attempt to drive into work.

I got about as far as the post office before I realized that I was in too much pain to survive an hour long drive into work, as it's my RIGHT toe that I ripped open. You know, the foot you drive with. So I turned the car around and drove home. When I got home, I called my boss and explained the situation, and told her I'd be back in the office the next day. I then spent the day in bed covered in blankets as much as possible, with my foot mostly propped up.

On the upside, this meant that I got to spend the day playing WoW with Taylor, which was fun! I'd missed playing WoW, and I'd also forgotten how little I'd actually gotten to play before, and how much I really do suck at the game. I love it, but I'd basically forgotten everything I used to know, and had to start over from scratch. But it was still amazingly fun and I hope I can find more time to play soon.

Also, further proof that I have the best boyfriend ever is not only does he spend an entire day helping me with WoW, but Monday night when I was in pain and shock and trying to scream and cry every time the feeling came back into my foot, he stayed online and gave me something to focus on other than my stupidity-caused injury. He distracted me with jokes and knowing that he was worried made me work to continue the conversation online without too many gaps on my end so that he would know what was going on and worry a little less.

So yeah, my foot hurts, my tattoo is beginning to scab and itch, I can't walk much faster than an old person shuffle, and I'm freezing 'cause I'm back in the office today and the heater seems to be broken, but at least I have people who care about me and an amazing boyfriend who made my day a lot better than it would have been without him.

Mal reads poetry? || 2 Albatrosses

I got a tattoo yesterday! [Monday
December 17th, 2007 at 2:25pm]
[ mood | sore ]

Forgive the semi-crappy camera phone picture. I promise I'll put up a better one once it's healed. :D


(it's kind of hard to tell from the photo, but this is on my left hip)

And in case you want to see the crappy reference photo... )

Mal reads poetry? || 5 Albatrosses

Hee! [Monday
December 10th, 2007 at 4:45pm]
[ mood | devious ]

I love how when I have a random girly "squee!" moment, it usually involves something not-so-girly.



Like handcuffs.




SQUEE!

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BLAH. [Monday
December 10th, 2007 at 2:12pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

So I had a mild panic attack this morning, partially because I once again let my insecurities get the best of me. Though now that my brain is beginning to right itself and process thought logically again, I realize that most of it was caused by the fact that I missed the last two doses of my birth control pill on accident. I forgot to take it yesterday, and while I remembered that I needed to take it this morning, I accidentally left the house without it because I had it in my bag for this weekend, and forgot to move it back into my work bag before I left the house this morning.

So I feel kind of stupid for potentially worrying the one friend who helped me through it this morning through instant messaging, as well as stupid for panicking about insignificant shit in general. Though mostly I've realized how much I hate this new fucking BC pill my doctor has me on. This one REALLY affects my mood if I forget it, whereas the one I was originally on hardly affected my mood at all. And the only reason I switched is because I don't have insurance and I can't afford the one I used to take without it. The one he put me on in the meantime is only $30 for a month's supply, versus the one I was on which was about $300 for a month's supply, but the insurance covered it all but about $25.

Also, this is the second time in the 4 month period I've had this pill that I've forgotten a dose, and both times I forgot I was hit with migraine headaches the day after I missed a dose, as well as stomach pains and a depressive downswing.

So I hate this pill, and the second I get insurance again I am going to ask my doctor to switch me back to the one I was originally on. I just wish I didn't have to wait until January to be eligible for insurance through my work.

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[Thursday
December 6th, 2007 at 9:01pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

I hate it when you catch the scent of someone you miss on your clothing.

Mostly because if you notice their scent on your clothes it's because they're not with you in person.

Dammit.

Mal reads poetry? || 2 Albatrosses

Two random thoughts from the chaos that is my mind: [Thursday
December 6th, 2007 at 12:51pm]
[ mood | annoyed ]

1. I am in desperate need of a haircut. Primarily because I am starting to look too girly. Ew.

2. Why the fuck don't I own a pair of combat boots yet?? LIZ WANTS STEEL TOED COMBAT BOOTS DAMMIT!!! (with buckles!)


....that is all.

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By the way... [Wednesday
December 5th, 2007 at 3:40pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

I keep forgetting to put this up, but I'm willing to do short stories as Christmas/Yule/Solstice/Whatever presents again for anyone that wants one this year.

Just let me know if you want one and give me a prompt for it. Or don't give me a prompt for it and see what happens. :)

I'm willing to write something completely original, as well as something from any of the various fandoms I know. If you're not sure if I know it just ask.

Please put all requests in a comment to this and I'll do my best to get it to you by the holiday!

Mal reads poetry? || 1 Albatross

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